Ramblings (for lack of a better title)

As I type this, I am listening to the non-stop screaming from my boys and Miles is currently in a time out for being too rowdy with Mason and knocking him over. Yes, they are having a good old time, but my head is about to explode! Then, in the middle of the previous sentence, Mason tumbled down the stairs. Luckily he is a tough little guy and just needed a hug and now he's back to being crazy with his brothers. - God help me!

Ugh. Maybe it's the Holidays, maybe it's just the fact that I am a mom to three active boys? I know I have so much to be thankful for, but sometimes it just gets SO completely overwhelming. I suppose I feel the need to vent my frustrations here because Max is currently on a trip to Oregon, so I don't have him to vent to right now. So here I am rambling to myself in my blogger... the new-age diary. I am sure this will sound just like all the random thoughts going through my head... unorganized and often irrational LOL.

First of all, money is always tight. I got stuck in the snow/ice TWICE this morning in my daily school taxi rounds. It would be SO nice to have a better, more safe vehicle. But we probably can't afford it. Thank GOD for the kindness of strangers, but at the same time, can you trust them? LOL I couldn't help but be a little afraid having the kids with me... just a lone, defenseless mom with her three kids, well two kids the times I got stuck. Given the fact that yesterday some crazed gunman decided to open fire on church-goers at New Life Church, should I have a healthy fear? Or is it unhealthy? LOL Ramblings! - Back to the money issue... Christmas presents! We can't afford to get US anything for Christmas and we are yet again spending money on the kids that we don't really have.

Secondly, CHAOS. My life is SO chaotic! I need to get organized, stick to a budget, I need to be more patient, I need to be more understanding and I need to be a better friend, wife, daughter, sister, neighbor, playgroup organizer, and most of all, a better mother. All that said, I know I can be hard on myself...

Thirdly, I am TIRED! Being exhausted makes me see things out of proportion. The daily stresses, money, three kids running in circles around you 24/7... all those stresses are magnified when I am so tired. My mind and body just can't process it all the way I should when I am always exhausted.

Of course whenever I feel down about life, I always think of the Gentrys. HOW can complain? I mean really, how can I possibly complain? I have everything I have ever dreamed of having; A loving husband who I am madly in love with... who is hands down, the BEST father I know. Three vibrant, healthy, smart and funny boys. A nice house. A mostly dependable car. Living in suburbia. Being part of a really great playgroup. Good friends. Good neighbors. Even a really great family dog. Yet I still complain...

Anyways, I guess no one is perfect, we all have our own set of problems and baggage and we should never judge a book by it's cover. There is a sea of thoughts and feelings swimming inside of everyone's hearts and minds. Add me to the list as one of the many mothers out there that is completely overwhelmed with her life!

*By the way, I still have to post about Miles' 4th Birthday Party that we had on December 8th! I guess I'll put that down on my huge "to do" list!